The cupcake solution

I've been in a really bad mood for the last 10 days. There's been some variety in my mood mind you. You know, those subtle shades between sad, surly, angry, woeful, indignant and overwrought. Sigh.

I'm actually feeling a little better today. It may have been the good sleep I had last night or doing pilates three days in a row. I like to think it's the 13 cupcakes I've consumed in the last 48 hours. Yup I've now eaten a baker's dozen of cupcakes.

And you know what? I feel mostly okay with that (mostly because I think the refined sugar has started to eat through my stomach lining). I baked them, I decorated them with sprinkles and I've enjoyed them. I needed to do something nice for myself and each of those 13 cupcakes have helped me in my quest to not anger and alienate my loved ones as I ride this regrettable emotional roller coaster.

This is not a sustainable coping strategy. Continuous cupcake consumption could become a very maladaptive behaviour, but it did its job when I needed it to. I will continue to search for a way out of this mood and continue to feel okay with eating 13 cupcakes. Yep, I'll feel great with every step I take as I run off half a cake this week. So good indeed.

HRH