I ran yesterday.
I realize that a proclamation like the one above makes me sound a little bit like a 5-year-old who finds every task they do just amazing and something to be totally proud of. And I guess that more often than not I take pride in completing what may seem like pretty basic things, but believe me, this is actually a bit of a big deal.
I was on the treadmill at the gym, working on day two of my cross-training program when the greatness went down. I've added the gym to the regimen of swimming and cycling because while my heart is now in just wonderful shape, I'm just not burning fat like I want to be. So cross-training. Rowing machine, spinning, abs, weights and the treadmill. At first I thought I was just going to do some brisk walking. I figured that would get me sweating, but not strain the dysfunctional knees too much.
But then I got ambitious. A friend (and new workout buddy) pointed out that I'm going to have to endure knee pain if I want to a) get really fit and b) restore strength to the joints. I've been taking my anti-inflammatories (I also like to think that while they reduce swelling in my joints they also give me exceptional negotiating skills. Maybe not, eh), eating right and thinking happy active thoughts, so I went for it. I ran.
It's been over a year since I last ran, and even then it was pretty pathetic. But this time it was working for me. I started at a slow jog after a good warm-up walk, thinking that would be all I could do. But something made me increase the treadmill speed. As each minute passed I upped the treadmill until I was actually running. I kept my feet from turning out and twisting my knees, I remembered how to keep my hands relaxed as I ran and it didn't hurt. Dare I say, it was fun. Maybe even a little liberating.
I didn't run for too long. Things were going well and I didn't want to push my luck. But it was running! How awesome is that? My next challenge is to not get ahead of myself. It's going to take a long time to get my knee muscles strong again and I don't even know if that's even going to be enough. I may just have to give in someday and get scoped. But I'm not there yet.
Yesterday I ran and today I can walk. Not without pain, but somehow the pain matters less to me today. I can't help but think that this could be the start of the end of at least one of my limitations. It will be a pretty cool day when I can run down a hill, eat a peanut butter sandwich and have a glass of wine. When decisions are an issue of will or will not, instead of can or can't. Yeah, that would be really cool.
Today's sing-a-long song: "Run Like Hell" by Pink Floyd
HRH