Round the bend

I'm one exhausted girl. To say that work is full of suprises and new challenges is an understatement. I'm dealing with some external people who I actually believe are trying to suck the life out of me. But I won't let them. No. No. They can try to blindside me with their ineptitude and idiocy, but I will prevail. Oh yes. I will.

Other than all of that I'm okay. I had a good cry yesterday, which I know sounds strange but it really was good. I'm not a happy crier. I cry when I'm sad, tired or hungry. I laugh when I'm happy. My emotions are nicely organized that way. The odd thing has been that I've been really stoic for months. As Cronk in The Emperor's New Groove would say "There's a wall there." I was getting a little concerned that I wasn't expressing emotions like I normally do. I'd lost my extreme highs and lows, settling with a dull hum. And it was strange, because I've been a pretty emotional person for most of my life.

Anyway, psychobabble and introspection aside, I finally cried yesterday. I hesitate to say it felt good, but it felt like a bit of a release. Not a dramatic turn for the best or anything like that, but just another step towards feeling like me again. And true to my form, I felt good today. I cried out the bad, went to bed and woke up happy. Soon I'll have my entire emotional roster at my finger tips and that will be nice.

Today's sing-a-long song: "Tender" by Blur

HRH